triggered? content? i dunno.

the past couple of days have been... well.. for the lack of a word... traumatic. no.

they have been.. empowering?

no.

ive been doing things for myself- for my health- emotional, mental, physical. and they've been good for me. rly good. but its been rly hard for me. ive been facing a lot of fears. im proud of myself.

but sometimes it can be very lonely here at hampshire.

it doesnt help that the weirdest songs have been stuck in my head... like seal's kiss from a rose...? haha, im playing it right now, thinking abt my life.

its so corny. its a bit shameful.

its not my fault crappy love songs keep playing on my itunes.. hahaha.

actually, now that im thinking abt it, im rly happy.

no.

satisfied.

i feel satisfied for the first time in a while. and i am making a vow to take care of myself and stay happy- for now, at least.

i wish i had a camera. i keep walking around and seeing things that make me happy, at least for a second, and i want to take snapshots of them. instead i kind of hold my fingers up in front of my face and go "click". rly stupid, but it makes me smile, just knowing that ive captured this rly nice image in a rly silly way.

ahh fuck work. instead of doing what i should be doing, i think im gonna go play with barbies at mod 80..!

see what i mean? silly, but it makes me feel good. im all abt the "id" today, i guess. :)